Alright, so I haven't really gotten around to discussing it here on this account yet. As some of you may already know, I took a chance with the final InvaderCon and actually decided to attend the con despite my rather negative experiences with the fandom in recent years. To say the very least, it was a fairly fun and relaxing weekend. Got to meet a few close friends of mine as well as meet a few other deviants on here that I never thought I'd ever get the chance to meet in real life (not to mention, deviants whom I never would have guessed actually recognized me as anybody notable in the fandom). I can be fairly shy when it comes to meeting new people in person, so it was nice having a few of them come up to say hello on the final night there.
All things considered though, I was honestly surprised by the nature of the con this time around. Unlike last time, when my friends and I encountered quite a few rude fans in the fandom, this time's experience was quite nice in comparison. At the last con, there seemed to be a certain amount of tension between the fans, most notably stemming from a clashing of fans who supported different IZ ships as well as fans who didn't support ships in the fandom at all. I kid you not, you guys. I literally had a deviant on here tell me to my face at the last con that I personally was the reason the fandom sucked so many balls (She didn't say this to me until AFTER finding out I shipped ZADR, of course). Honestly though, I think it's that sort of hostility between fans that ruins the fandom as a whole.
I expected to run across more of the same at this con, but was pleasantly surprised by how little shipping was actually brought up in the panel discussions, save for one or two kind of annoying questions that the voice actors quickly put to rest. Personally speaking though, I'm a very open fan myself. I don't discriminate between IZ pairings and can honestly say I support them all to an extent. What I don't support is the fighting between fans that believe one ship is more canon than another for whatever reason. The fact of the matter will always stand that there IS NO SUCH THING AS CANON PAIRINGS IN THE IZ UNIVERSE! As such, pairings should be enjoyed all in good and harmless fun.
That being said, the con really got me thinking about whether or not I should give the public another chance with this story and return to posting it publicly here on DA/Fanfiction.net. To say the very least, I'm still rather hesitant about putting my work out there again. I don't know if the con just lulled me into a false sense of security about it or what. I would LIKE to continue posting chapters up on this account and such, but at the same time, I'd be afraid of disrupting the peace I've had from the fandom in recent months. So what do you guys think? Would you rather see the chapters posted and read the story that way? Or should I stick with my mailing list in a continued effort to preserve the peace on here? I honestly just want to be able to post without idiots coming along to insult my work on here. That's all. The story is written for fun and it really is just such a buzz kill when people in the fandom can't be bothered to leave their opinions about it at the front door.
I post this story for my own personal amusement, of course, but also for the sake of putting smiles on other people's faces should they decide to read and enjoy it. Yet, at the same time, I sometimes feel as though it may be asking too much for people to simply not comment if they don't have anything nice to say about it. I already know and emphasize time and again that my written works are far from the best out there. That's not going to make me stop writing about these characters and the universe they exist in though, regardless of how strongly I feel about the fandom in general.
I don't know. I guess I'm just contemplating what my next step should be in regards to this story. On a side note however, I may consider starting up some new stories on here soon that I've been planning on writing for quite a long while now. As some of my viewers may already know, I'm a rather big DADR fan on top of being a ZADR fan. I know DADR isn't as heavily supported as ZADR, but I just thought I'd take a shot nonetheless at writing some DADR RPs to go along with my ZADR fanfictions here on DA. I've, of course, already got one solo DADR fanfiction in the works over on my main account that I need to get back to, but I've also been discussing starting a new one with sassafrass002
ever since we got around to discussing IZ theories we had that we never got the chance to put into action. So in short, we're basically going to be mashing all our ideas up together and hoping to come out with a somewhat decent plot line (though, of course, we'll also have an element of ZADR involved since neither of us can really resist a good plot twist). My friend, DigitalRevolution
, and I also started another DADR fanfiction on our way home from InvaderCon that's coming along rather nicely so far. So perhaps I'll advertise more for that story as well once we've decided how we want to go about posting it (This one may not be as appropriate to post up here on DA).
All in all though, I just wanted to let you guys know that I am NOT dead. Just in deep contemplation over my work as I move forward into the future. Writing has and always will be a hobby of mine. If I can share my thoughts with the world and make at least a few people happy in the long run, I'll consider my job done and a success, regardless of whether my writing takes me anywhere farther in the future or not. I went to school for my hobby at the end of the day and just want to have fun with it in my free time, even if the rest of the world decides to hate on it.
Sorry if I sound as though I'm rambling, you guys. There's just been a lot going through my head in recent weeks that I feel as though I may as well address at some point. Feel free to ignore this journal if you think it's pointless though. It's being written into a journal for a reason. And isn't that where most people put their thoughts and such anyways when they feel the need to clear their heads out? I think so, so don't mind me as I type this all out to myself. It's all just thoughts floating around in mind, really.