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Well, it's been a long time coming now, but I've finally gotten around to making the changes I wanted to make to this story. Sorry I couldn't get back to you guys sooner after my last journal entry. To say the very least though, I've been keeping just as busy as ever, working and sorting through some plans for the future. Honestly, I don't know where my life is headed at the moment, but I'll try not to let the uncertainty of my offline life keep me from updating here any longer.

I also want to thank those of you who responded to my last journal as well. You guys have no idea how much your support really means to me. Regardless of how many changes this story has gone through over the years, it's been you guys who have kept me going all this time. So thank you! :heart:

It's hard to believe it's already been nearly 6 years now since it was first started, and I never would have imagined I could focus on one single project for so long, but somehow I've managed. That's why I'm still very much determined to finish this story, no matter what. Many thanks to all my most recent watchers as well. Whether you're reading this story for the first time or just so happen to have started reading it back when it was first posted, I appreciate the continued support here.

That being said, I'll be uploading the next chapter here in just a short while. For those of you wondering, I DID finally decide on somebody to create a new preview image for the story, and said preview image has now officially replaced Chapters 101-178 and onward. To those of you who offered me their help but weren't chosen for the commission opportunity, thank you anyways. There were a lot of factors I took into consideration before deciding who I wanted to pay for such a job, and I'm happy to say the new preview image turned out awesome in the long run. Sorry I couldn't get back to you guys personally. Life has just been a roller coaster of ups and down lately. I WILL try to be more active here though. Thank you for your patience in the meantime.

---Pat

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Antennas drooping when he saw the all too guilty look on Dib’s face in that moment, Zim looked off to one side a little guiltily himself for having thought the other would leave him. “O-Oh... I'm sorry...” he apologized, feeling rather foolish now for how he had reacted to the other’s disappearance.

“But it wasn't your fault! I didn't know you'd wake up before I got back! I didn't even think you would notice! But you did, and now you think I hate you because of it!” Dib pulled away from Zim, yanking down on his antennas harshly. “I didn't mean to hurt you! I never meant to hurt you ever!” he exclaimed in a voice shaken with emotion.

“Dib, no no!” Zim sat up rapidly and grabbed hold of him to pull him close. “I-I'm sorry…that I thought you would leave me...” he apologized again, having not meant to make Dib think he didn’t trust him.

“I-I just wanted you to feel better about being with me...” Dib sobbed into the Irken's chest, antennae shuddering. “I-I wanted to make you happy.” he then sniffled wetly.

Zim smiled sadly at those words. “You make me happy just being here, Dib...” he assured the other, not wanting Dib to think he had to do anything to earn his happiness.

Dib looked away when the other said that. “...It doesn't always seem that way...You want me to go to therapy because you think the old me is still inside me somewhere...But I really don't think it's there anymore! S-So I just wanted to get you something to remind you of the old me...s-something to remind you of the me you fell in love with...You gave up everything for that side of me, but I haven't returned any of it!” he exclaimed, fresh tears beginning to sting at his eyes when he considered how different he was now from how he’d been back when they were still rivals.

“What do you mean?” Zim asked, confused by those words.

Pulling away to stand back up, Dib then slowly made his way across the room to retrieve the bag of items he had picked up on his trip about town. “I wanted...to give you something special...from our past...” he hugged the bag of items close to his chest.

Zim eyed the bag curiously. “Something…special?” he repeated back to the other before tilting his head to one side questioningly.

Nodding his head slowly, Dib took out only a few of the bag’s contents, one of which was a small bouquet of red, white, and pink roses, only a few intact now as a good portion of them had been ruined when he had thrown the plastic bag across the room from them, petals missing in various spots now. Another item was a small box of chocolates, and yet another a small box he had placed something special in for Zim.

Zim smiled a little at the sight of the flowers and candy. “Zim loves chocolate...” he said before noticing the box in Dib’s hands. “What's that?” he asked, the small box almost resembling the one Dib’s engagement ring had come in.

Handing Zim the box to open, Dib watched as the other removed the lid to it so he could pull out what was inside, a small heart-shaped locket on a gold and silver chain, the heart itself being gold with a silver star in the middle. “I-I thought that if I got you something to remember the old me by, you'd feel better about being with the new me more.” he said as he watched Zim open up the locket to find two star-shaped frames on either side, one side portraying a fairly old picture of himself as a human still and the other, what looked to be a brand new picture of himself as a hybrid. “I-I had to find a photo booth for the more recent picture, a-and that's why it took me so long to get back...” he said in a quiet voice, certain that if it hadn’t been for that, he easily could have returned to the house long before Zim had woken back up.

Looking up at Dib shiny-eyed, Zim blushed and smiled a little. “Thank you, Dib...” he pulled the hybrid close. “I love it.” he said, delicately running a single finger over the frames inside the locket.

Leaning in to Zim's warm embrace, Dib’s antennae fell back as he found the Irken's chest yet again to sob into lightly, still clutching the bag close to himself. He had made one other stop while he was out, though he was hesitant to tell Zim about it as he wasn't certain how the other would react to knowing.

Smiling and rubbing his back a little, Zim kissed him before moving to put the locket on happily.

Looking back up when Zim pulled away from him to put his new locket on, Dib blinked tearful eyes up at him, still contemplating whether he should tell Zim about his other stop. He had made a stop back at his house to retrieve the older picture for Zim’s locket, his father thankfully having been nowhere in sight. On top of that, he had also raided his old room for a few things he had wanted to retrieve for a while now, having come across a few other trinkets during his search, including some old videos of Zim he had taped years ago and a few intact photo albums.

Looking back at him, Zim noticed the bag still in his arms. “What's that?” he asked, noting that it seemed to have more inside of it than just the presents Dib had brought back for him.

“N-Nothing...” Dib lied, refusing to meet Zim's gaze for a few long moments before finally giving in, knowing there would be no point in keeping his whereabouts a secret from the other forever. “J-Just some old videos I recorded a long time ago…a-and a few photo albums...I-I picked them up at my old house while I was grabbing a few fresh pairs of clothes...a-and the older picture of myself for your locket...” he tried to pass it off as no big deal but knew already what the other would no doubt say about that.

Zim looked up at the hybrid worriedly at that information. “You shouldn't have gone there, Dib. The professor is still looking for you…” he said, trying hard not to overreact as the last thing he wanted was for Dib to think he didn’t appreciate his present to him.

“But I had to go there! I had to get the picture for your locket! It wouldn't have meant anything if I hadn't gotten it!”

Sighing and nodding a bit at Dib’s outburst, Zim hugged him in closely. “You still shouldn't have risked it, Dib...” he said again, not wanting to even think about how things might have turned out if the professor had been there to catch him in the process.

“It was worth it if it was for you...” Dib’s voice came out quiet as he nuzzled into Zim.

Zim smiled slightly at those words and the soft nuzzle he received from the other. “I love you.” he said in a soft voice just barely above a whisper.

“I love you too...so fucking much...” Dib let out a shaky sigh as he slowly began to calm back down for the first time that day. He just wanted to be with Zim now and that was all.

Smiling and pulling him close, Zim then opened his box of chocolates and licked his lips hungrily.

“I...I wanted to get you something sweet to eat...s-since I know you like sweets so much...” Dib blushed as Zim held him close.

Biting into one, Zim smiled satisfied. “You know me well.” he said before helping himself to the rest of it.

“W-Well, I spent a lot of time obsessing over you...b-back when you first started attending school with me...”

Zim nodded, eating another chocolate. “Want one?” he then asked, holding one up for Dib to take.

Staring at the chocolate being offered to him for a few long moments, Dib then hesitantly leaned himself forward to take just a small bite, not wanting to fill up on sweets right before dinner.

Zim smiled and nuzzled into Dib when he accepted it, just happy that this whole ordeal hadn’t resulted in Dib completely losing his appetite or him losing his hybrid.
ZADR Orange Chapter 184
A/N: Hey, you guys. Sorry this chapter is a few hours later than I promised it would be posted up by. To be perfectly honest, I blacked out shortly after finishing up the chapter last night. XD Figured it'd just be best to make my final tweaks and edits in the morning before work so I'd be at least a little more clear-headed to catching any mistakes I may have missed. In any case though, hope you guys enjoy this next update! :) Consider it an early Valentine's Day upload. ;) As for when I estimate the next chapter to be out by, I'm gonna shoot for the 28th of this month. So until then~:heart: Many thank as always to all my most recent supporters/watchers/favers/commenters/etc. You guys are great. :)

~ZADR Orange Chapter 184~

Disclaimer- We do not own the cartoon that this fanfiction is written for, nor any of the characters from it. We do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Rating: M

Warnings: EXTREME OOCness! (If you can not handle the OOCness in this story, then please click the back button now and don't even bother commenting about it. Any flamers we get WILL be blocked accordingly.)

All of Zim's parts for about the first 3/4ths of this story were done by Notgonnadie. Because of an argument we had a few months ago, however, and the fact that she left the fandom, the last 1/4th of this story will be written by myself alone and "potentially" another person should I decide on somebody who can match the writing style for this story. So we hope you all enjoy what has been written already and what will continue to be written towards the end.

Dib: ZADRfan1 AKA Pat-The-Kitsune

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Sighing to herself when Dib broke down into tears against the unconscious Irken’s chest, Rose reached over a hand to rub up and down Dib's back soothingly. “It will be okay, Dib. The medical drone said he just needed to rest.” she assured him, certain all this stress couldn’t be good for the hybrid or his unborn smeets.

“But I did this to him! He thinks I hate him now, and it's all my fault!”

“Oh, Dib…It's okay.” Rose tried to pull him into a hug.

Allowing Rose to pull him into her own warm embrace, Dib turned himself from Zim to sob lightly into her shirt now. “I-I didn't mean for this to happen to him...I-I wanted to make it up to him! Because I've put him through so much!” he exclaimed, memories of everything that had happened to Zim flashing through his mind again for what was probably the millionth time since then.

Rose pet him as she held him close. “I know…It's okay, Dib. He just needs to rest. It will all be okay.” she said again, no knowing what more she could say to comfort him at this point.

Feeling horrible now as he felt he was more a burden to Zim than anything else, Dib only continued to cry more and more against her. “He deserves better than this. He deserves better than what I can give him!” he then threw the bag of items he had dropped near the bed across the room and away from himself, a small shower of flower petals falling from the bag as it clattered against the far wall.

Jumping a bit at the sudden outburst, Rose glanced over at the plastic bag Dib had just knocked away from himself curiously before noticing the petals that now littered the floor around it. Certainly the bag was full of more than just flowers she assumed, judging by the sound it had made when it hit the opposite wall. “What did you go to get for him, Dib?” she asked, returning her attention back to Dib after a moment.

“It doesn't matter! He thinks I hate him now! I just wanted to surprise him, to get him a few things I thought he might like, but it just doesn't matter anymore! I thought that if I got him something to remember the old me by, he'd feel better about being with me I am right now, but all I ever seem to do is cause him more and more problems!” Dib pulled his knees up against his chest.

“Oh, Dib…It's okay.” Rose reached out to hold him close again, rocking back and forth a little bit.

Dib could only shake his head at those words, his hands clapped firmly over his antennae as he was rocked back and forth with her. “No, it's not! Because everything I do hurts Zim in some way! One of these days I may even end up killing him! He's already come close once!” he exclaimed in an explosion of raw emotion, hating himself all the more for putting Zim through so much physical and emotional turmoil.

“That wasn't your fault though, Dib!”

“Yes, it was! -I- was the one who wanted him to change me! That was against the law on his planet and so they stripped him of his PAK!”

“But, Dib...” Rose began to say, not knowing what else she could say or do to prove to him he hadn’t caused any of what happened.

Dib trembled where he sat. “I-It doesn't matter what I do...I-I always end up hurting him no matter what...I...I can't be with him if things like this keep on happening!” he began speaking more to himself now than anyone else.

“Oh, Dib. Don't say that. If you left, he'd feel terrible knowing you did it because of him...”

“It's not fair though! It's just not fair! I love him so fucking much, but he'd be so much better off if I had just stayed out of his life altogether! It's that way with nearly everybody in my life!”

“Don't say that, Dib!” Rose pulled him away from her to send him a stern look now. “The two of you have made Jack and me so happy...And Zim loves you so much...” she said before returning to holding him close again, not wanting Dib to believe any of what he was saying about himself.

Feeling drained now as he slumped up against Rose’s lap, Dib let out a wet sob against her. “All I want is to make everything up to Zim...” he said in a suddenly very calm voice, evident of just how emotionally tired out he was now.

Rose sighed and rubbed his back gently. “I know...” she said once she felt him calming against her.

Mumbling a little in his sleep once everything had grown quiet again, Zim turned his head to one side with a slightly pained expression on his face before settling again into a more peaceful sleep.

Antennae perking at the small bit of mumbling, Dib shot back up in his spot to stare over at Zim momentarily, his antennae drooping again however when the other didn't wake up right away.

Rose smiled a little at the small bit of movement. “See, he's fine, Dib…He was just worried is all. But you're safe now so everything is okay.” she said in a soft voice to put his mind more at ease.

“...He's not waking up though...” Dib’s antennae drooped even more as he kept his eyes glued on Zim, searching for any changes in the other. He just wanted Zim to wake up and be okay.

“He's just tired, Dib. It's alright.”

Blinking more tears out of his eyes as he sat there watching Zim, Dib didn't want to be moved in that moment nor did he want anybody telling him it would be alright. All he wanted was proof, for Zim to open his eyes and show him. But the Irken seemed for the most part to be out cold still.

“Would you like something to eat?”

Having no appetite for anything at the moment, Dib shook his head slowly. “...I'm not hungry...” he said before pillowing his cheek in his arms on the bed, reluctant to even blink at this point as he watched Zim sleep soundly.

Rose sighed and nodded at those words, deciding not to push the matter for now. “Okay...Will you at least come down when he wakes up though?” she asked, wanting to make sure he at least ate something later if not now.

Dib remained silent for several long moments before answering. “...Okay...” he agreed in a soft voice, not really wanting to leave Zim again, awake or not.

Rose smiled at that answer and nodded. “Alright then.” she got up and headed for the door. “Jack and I will be right downstairs if you need us.” she then said, deciding to leave him alone now that he was relatively calm again.

Nestling his head up against Zim's side as he nodded his head silently, Dib could only pull closer to the bed as he waited for her to leave before breaking down all over again.

Zim stirred a little when Dib began sobbing against him again. “Nnn...” he let out a small, uncomfortable sound.

Jolting a bit at the bit of movement coming from Zim, Dib looked back up at him with wide, tearful eyes before pushing himself underneath one of the Irken's limp arms as he nuzzled himself closer to Zim's chest.

Zim’s eyes fluttered open slowly. “Nnn…Dib?” he spoke the other’s name in an all too disoriented fashion.

“Zim!” Dib glomped onto the finally conscious Irken, hiding his face away in the alien's uniform top. “I-I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...I-I didn't mean for this to happen...I-I didn't mean to hurt you...” he whimpered out, not wanting Zim to hate him for having left. “Please don't hate me...I love you so much...” he then pressed one of his wet cheeks up against Zim's softly.

Confused by the other’s words and actions, Zim pushed Dib away a little bit so he could look at the other’s face with some concern. “Why are you crying? What happened?” he asked, his mind still in a daze as he could hardly remember what had even caused him to black out in the first place.

Dib felt like breaking down even more when Zim pushed him away. “I hurt you! I left for an hour to get something for you, but you thought I hated you and had left for good! A-And then you wouldn't wake up after I got back!” he exclaimed all at once, his hands gripping at the rim of his bunny hoodie tightly as he looked away to one side guiltily.
ZADR Orange Chapter 183
A/N: Hey, you guys. :) Hope you're all enjoying a good start to the new year. Don't got too much to update you all on at this point in time so I'll keep this author's note short and sweet. Thanks so much to those of you who have faved/wached/commented on/etc. this story. Your guys' support really means the world to me. I think I've finally worked out a suitable update schedule for the upcoming year. As such, I'm hoping my next update following this one to be out on the 10th of February. So please keep your eyes peeled for that. In the meantime, hope you guys enjoy this quick update for now though. ;)

~ZADR Orange Chapter 183~

Disclaimer- We do not own the cartoon that this fanfiction is written for, nor any of the characters from it. We do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Rating: M

Warnings: EXTREME OOCness! (If you can not handle the OOCness in this story, then please click the back button now and don't even bother commenting about it. Any flamers we get WILL be blocked accordingly.)

All of Zim's parts for about the first 3/4ths of this story were done by Notgonnadie. Because of an argument we had a few months ago, however, and the fact that she left the fandom, the last 1/4th of this story will be written by myself alone and "potentially" another person should I decide on somebody who can match the writing style for this story. So we hope you all enjoy what has been written already and what will continue to be written towards the end.

Dib: ZADRfan1 AKA Pat-The-Kitsune

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Back down in the kitchen meanwhile, both Rose and Jack sat at the kitchen table discussing something in private until the sound of frantic screaming coming from upstairs had the both of them jumping up from their spots with a start.

Spitting out the coffee he had been drinking, Jack flashed Rose a worried look before then running up the stairs with her to the bedroom Zim was in. “What is it?! What's wrong?!” he asked as he and Rose barged into the room without a second thought.

Noticing Zim sitting up in the bed alone, Rose looked about the room before returning her gaze back to the shell-shocked Zim. “Wh-Where is Dib?!” she asked when she realized the hybrid wasn’t there. None of them had even noticed that the boy had left the house over an hour ago.

Eyes wide and frantic, Zim now appeared paler than he had been before drifting off to sleep. “I-I don't know! I woke up and he was gone!” he said, gaze fixed upon the empty bed sheets next to him.

Not wanting to jump to any conclusions about Dib’s whereabouts, Rose quickly went to check some of the other rooms in the house for him, coming back a minute later when she couldn’t locate him. “He's not in the house. Jack, we have to find him!” she looked at her husband with just the tiniest hint of panic in her own expression now.

“Don't worry! Don't worry! I'll take the car and I'll find him! Everything will be okay.” Jack tried to reassure both Rose and Zim as he turned to head downstairs so he could grab his car keys.

Eyes still wide with shock, Zim could only remain sitting where he was, his entire body shaking. “It's my fault...I-I shouldn't have forced him to do this...He hates me...” he clutched at the bed covers tightly, his breathing becoming more and more labored by the second as he felt as though his throat was tightening up, making it impossible for him to catch his breath or settle his pounding heart.

Noticing Zim's breathing beginning to grow increasingly shaky, Rose turned to the pale Irken in the bed before attempting to flag his attention towards her. “Z-Zim...? Zim, calm down!” she then approached the bed to place two hands on his shoulders, trying to steady him as she could see he was on the verge of an anxiety attack. “Calm down and breathe, Zim. Jack will find him.” she said in a desperate attempt to calm him down.

Zim couldn't seem to do either of those things though as he saw the room beginning to spin before his eyes. “I-I can't...He hates me…He didn't want to go…Now he's left a-and...and...Ohhh...” he groaned out when the dizziness finally began to overwhelm him, his eyes closing before he fell over unresponsive.

“Zim!” Rose took a seat on the edge of the bed and gave him a little shake to try and rouse him. “Zim, please wake up! Please wake up!” she checked him for a pulse, wanting to make sure he was still breathing before calling downstairs for the medical drone.

Entering the room about thirty seconds later, the medical drone approached the bed close to where Rose was currently located. “What happened?” he asked, kneeling down by the bed so he could take over for Rose, checking Zim's vitals.

“He was having trouble breathing. Then he just passed out!”

Continuing his examination of Zim, the medical drone pulled away after a moment. “Well, he's breathing fine now. I think he just had a panic attack. Everything else seems to be functioning well enough though, so just stay with him until he wakes up and then I'll check him over again.” he said, not certain what more he could do for the other at this point.

Meanwhile, from downstairs in the kitchen, Jack could hear all the commotion coming from upstairs as he finally located his car keys, pulled on his jacket, and made his way to the front door. Opening the door to head on out, it was at that moment that he bumped into a very familiar-looking, black-haired teenager. “D-Dib?!” he stared down at the hybrid with wide eyes.

Having fallen back at the impact, Dib sat up slowly in his spot, a plastic bag of items hanging from his arm.

“Dib!” Jack said again, pulling the hybrid up into a warm embrace and leading him back inside the house before closing the door behind them. Pulling away just as quickly, he then gave the frazzled teen a rough shake. “Where on Earth have you been, Dib?! You had us worried sick about you!” he raised his voice louder than he should have. Jack wasn't usually one to get mad. But in this case, he couldn't help but blow up just a bit on the other for having left without telling them where he was going.

A little thrown off guard by the sudden yelling, Dib could only shrink down somewhat with wide, fearful eyes, not having expected anyone to even notice he was gone during that time. “I-I'm sorry!” his antennae drooped down low, body trembling slightly as he sank back down to the floor with his knees pulled up to his chest.

Able to hear Jack’s yelling from downstairs, Rose bit her lip, wondering what exactly was going on down there but not wanting to leave Zim’s side until he woke up.

Sighing at Dib’s apology, Jack brought up a hand to press between his eyes, trying to calm himself down before speaking again. “Well, where have you been?” he asked, deciding to start there.

Still a bit shaken, Dib slowly lifted his gaze up to look at Jack. “I-I was just out getting a few things...f-for Zim…” he squeezed his eyes tightly shut, sinking down in his spot just a bit more.

It was only just then that Jack seemed to notice Dib was now dressed in the bunny hood shirt that Zim and Rose had picked out for him at the mall. Jack stared at the hoodie awkwardly for a moment. “Why didn't you just tell us then?” he asked, deciding to ignore what the other was dressed in for now.

“B-Because I wanted it to be a surprise!” Dib clutched the bag of items close to himself, having picked up several things on his trip out of the house.

Jack sighed again at that response. “Well…Next time just tell us when you're leaving, okay?” he said, not certain how much more of this drama he could handle at this point.

Still holding the bag of items close to his chest, Dib merely nodded his head slowly in agreement, having no idea what a panic his leaving had caused upstairs.

Breathing out one final sigh of relief, Jack turned to return his keys and jacket back to the kitchen. “You should go check up on Zim...” he said before walking into said room with hardly a glance back towards the hybrid.

“Wh-Why? What happened? D-Did something bad happen to Zim?!” Dib’s eyes grew perfectly wide as he suddenly made a sprint for the stairs, running up to the room he had left Zim in.

Petting Zim's head comfortingly, Rose sighed to herself as though exhausted. These two were going to end up killing each other with all this stress.

“Zim?!” Dib barged back into the room, eyes wild as they landed on the unconscious Irken. “Oh no...Zim!” he ran up to where Rose and the medical drone were, dropping the bag of items he had brought up with him onto the floor to check Zim for himself. “What happened?! Tell me!” he stared up at Rose with teary eyes, just knowing from the looks on their faces that something bad had happened while he had been out.

“He had a panic attack, Dib...”

“W-Well, is he going to be alright?! Did he hurt himself?!” Dib asked all at once, pulling closer to the Irken and holding him tight.

“I don't know…He just passed out.”

Body trembling, Dib stared down at Zim terrified, his own breathing beginning to grow quick and shallow now also. He hadn't meant for this to happen! Hadn't meant for Zim to get hurt after he had left! Tears streaming down his face now, he pressed his forehead gently to Zim's. “I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...” he repeated over and over again to the other in a quiet whisper before gasping, his eyes squeezing tightly shut suddenly as the muscles in his abdomen tightened up again. “O-Ooow...Ziiim...I'm sorry...” he tried to ignore the sudden cramp he felt within his abdomen in favor of pressing one of his cheeks to the alien's chest.

“Dib? Dib, what's wrong? More false contractions?”

Dib could only clutch tightly to Zim for several long moments, unable to answer at first as the tightness slowly subsided, leaving him panting as he nodded his head slowly. It didn’t matter though. “Z-Zim...” he pulled the alien's limp body into a tight hug. “Please wake up...Please wake up...” he begged in an all too broken voice. He just wanted the other to open his eyes again. “Please...I'm sorry I left...I-I didn't think you would even notice...I-I thought I would be back before you woke up!” he exclaimed before then breaking down completely and sobbing against the Irken's chest.
ZADR Orange Chapter 182
A/N: Happy New Years, you guys! :) Sorry this chapter is a day late. I meant to post it up last night after getting off from work but had a kind of rough start to the new year. In any case though, hope the rest of you are all enjoying a smoother start to your new years. :) I'm hoping to post a good amount over the year 2016. Guess we'll see how well I keep to that resolution. XD Please enjoy this quick update in the meantime though. =)

~ZADR Orange Chapter 182~

Disclaimer- We do not own the cartoon that this fanfiction is written for, nor any of the characters from it. We do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Rating: M

Warnings: EXTREME OOCness! (If you can not handle the OOCness in this story, then please click the back button now and don't even bother commenting about it. Any flamers we get WILL be blocked accordingly.)

All of Zim's parts for about the first 3/4ths of this story were done by Notgonnadie. Because of an argument we had a few months ago, however, and the fact that she left the fandom, the last 1/4th of this story will be written by myself alone and "potentially" another person should I decide on somebody who can match the writing style for this story. So we hope you all enjoy what has been written already and what will continue to be written towards the end.

Dib: ZADRfan1 AKA Pat-The-Kitsune

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A little thrown off guard by Dib's sudden rise in temper, Zim pulled back away from him at the outburst before narrowing his eyes on the hybrid, something inside of him seeming to snap and push him over the edge in that moment. "BECAUSE THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU!" he screamed back, pinning both Dib's arms to the wall and refusing to let the other move from that spot.

“AND SO YOU THINK HAVING ANOTHER PERSON CALLING ME INSANE IS GOING TO HELP?!” Dib looked up at Zim with an all too broken expression on his face.

“THEY WON'T CALL YOU INSANE! THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOU BEING CRAZY BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT! THIS IS ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU EMOTIONALLY!”

Dib’s eyes could only grow perfectly wide at all of Zim's screaming, making him want to pull away. He struggled weakly, antennae falling back as he didn't want to admit that anything was wrong with him. “L-Let me go...L-L-Let me go...” he whimpered out helplessly, breathing shaky as he sobbed to himself.

“NO! NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME, DIB! I'VE BEEN TO HELL AND BACK! I DIED! I'VE DONE EVERYTHING FOR YOU! THE LEAST YOU COULD DO IS JUST TRUST ME!”

Balling up in his spot when Zim wouldn't let go of him, Dib flinched at the yelling, his body trembling.

Panting from his yelling, Zim then held him tightly once he had caught his breath again and calmed some.

“Th-There's nothing wrong with me...” Dib closed his eyes, his hands clapped over his antennae now. “...There's nothing wrong with me...” he then said a second time, trying to convince himself more of this than anybody else at that point.

“Dib, please...”  Zim pried the hybrid’s hands off from his antennas. “Just do this for me. I'm not going to leave you alone while we’re there. I'll be right there next to you, I promise…Please?” he held both Dib’s hands firmly in his own.

Sniffling wetly, Dib merely shook his head however. “...Wh-Why...? Why are you trying to change me?!” he sent Zim a look of panic, afraid the other really did hate the way he was now.

“I'm not trying to change you, Dib...I just want to help...” Zim held him close, rocking back and forth in his spot with him. “Please...Just trust me...” he pleaded with the other to give him a chance.

Dib breathed in shakily at those words. “...I-I do trust you...” he blinked some tears out of his eyes. “But I still don't want to go...” he hid his face in the Irken's uniform top. “Don't make me go...P-Please don't make me go...” he begged, a part of him truly frightened by what such a visit might reveal about himself. The last thing he wanted was for Zim to discover yet another part about him to dislike.

“Dib... I won't let anything bad happen to you…We'll go check it out tomorrow…And if they really do try to call you crazy, we'll never go back again…Alright?”

Knowing now that he wasn't getting out of this no matter how much he begged the other not to take him in, Dib didn't answer back but rather just cried against the other, his fears getting the better of him now.

“Shhh…It's okay, Dib…” Zim held him close, rubbing his back soothingly in an attempt to calm him.

Not wanting to be moved from that spot,  Dib’s antennae wilted as he continued to cry and cry for the better half of the next hour until his anxiety finally left him feeling drained and he drifted back off to sleep pressed up against the other.

Sighing to himself once Dib had finally settled into a more or less restful sleep, Zim nuzzled the sleeping hybrid before glancing up at Rose. “Could you help me get him into bed?” he asked, feeling thoroughly drained now himself from the back and forth argument they’d been having and even more so from the fact he’d actually won it.

“Of course.” Rose knelt down to help Zim, said Irken still taking on the majority of Dib’s weight so they could carry him back upstairs to the bedroom and tuck him in once they had reached the bed. “Would you like me to make the appointment to see the therapist? I know of a therapist who works with people aged 8-18.” she offered, certain Zim had already dealt with enough stress for one day even just convincing Dib to agree to such a meeting.

Zim nodded his head once Dib was comfortably resting in the bed. “Please? That would help a lot.” he said, certain Rose could handle setting up an appointment much better than he could himself.

“Alright. I may need to give them some information concerning Dib though. Would you rather we experimented with his female disguise tomorrow and send him as a female? Or would it just be easier for you having him go as himself?” Rose asked, starting to worry about how noticeable his pregnancy was becoming.

“I…I don't know... What would be better?”

“Well...I-I think he could still pass as a male if he had to, but he's really starting to show more now. It might be safer sending him as a female, if the both of you remember not to do or say anything that would give him away as a male. I honestly don't know which would be better for this situation though.”

Zim sighed and nodded at those words, figuring it best he make the call on at least that much. “It would be easier if his pregnancy wasn't a secret...” he said, certain Dib’s pregnancy had at least something to do with the other’s emotional outbursts.

“So as a female then. We can do that. Consider it...a trial run for before Dib has to wear that disguise to any of the pregnancy classes we signed you up for.”

Zim sighed and nodded again.

“Don't worry too much about it, Zim...So long as you don't mention the fact that he's male in any way, this meeting should go smoothly enough. I'll make the appointment now.” Rose said, standing up to head on out of the room and back down to the kitchen so she could look up the number she wanted and call the therapist.

Zim sighed one final time. “It might be easier if they knew he was...” he said under his breath before shaking his head and crawling into the bed next to Dib. He'd NEVER reveal his love to anyone.  The safety of Dib and their unborn smeets was his top priority above all else he reminded himself as he gradually allowed himself to drift back off to sleep with his hybrid.

Feeling the shift in weight on the bed, Dib turned to curl himself up against Zim. It wouldn't be until about another 2 and a half hours later that he woke up back in the bed again, feeling just a tad bit disoriented and confused about how he had gotten there.

He sat himself up slowly, rubbing his head before noticing Zim fast asleep next to him. To say the very least, Zim didn't look well at all as he slept curled up in a tight ball, pale with his antennae drooping low. It caused Dib to feel a sharp pain ripping through his heart. He had done this to the other, put Zim through so much. It wasn't fair that he was like this. He wanted to give Zim so much more than he was at the moment. Sex wasn't enough.

He leaned down, brushed back one of Zim's antennas a little, and then kissed the Irken lightly on the cheek. Zim deserved so much better than what he was giving. The Irken had done so much for him already. Dib couldn't stay just lying there for even one moment longer.

Shifting his weight slowly towards the edge of the bed, he slowly got himself up, taking care not to wake Zim in the process before heading on out of the room and closing the door behind him. He had somewhere he needed to go, something he needed to pick up for the other. Making his way down the hall, he then made sure nobody else was around before heading for the front door silently. The coast was clear as he quietly left the house, nobody the wiser to where he was heading.

Meanwhile, his body having been so stressed it had reverted back to how it had been when he first arrived, minus all the blood, Zim didn't budge for at least another hour. Feeling dizzy and sick when he finally did begin to come around again, he then whimpered and tried to cuddle up to Dib, freezing in his spot when all he met was air. “D-Dib?” the other’s name left his lips before he cracked open his eyes and gasped at the empty spot next to him in bed. Dib was gone!
ZADR Orange Chapter 181
A/N: Welp, I meant to revise this chapter a few more times before posting it up today, but unfortunately, I've gotta be heading out early to a friend's house today. So much for my day off from work to relax and be productive. :/ Ah well. Hope you guys enjoy this quick update regardless! I wrote it up on Monday and don't really wanna put off posting it any longer, considering my next day off after today won't be until next Monday. Ugh...Something tells me work's gonna be hell this upcoming weekend. ;_; In any case though, sorry this chapter is shit. I'll try to come out with better updates in the future. ;3;

~ZADR Orange Chapter 181~

Disclaimer- We do not own the cartoon that this fanfiction is written for, nor any of the characters from it. We do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Rating: M

Warnings: EXTREME OOCness! (If you can not handle the OOCness in this story, then please click the back button now and don't even bother commenting about it. Any flamers we get WILL be blocked accordingly.)

All of Zim's parts for about the first 3/4ths of this story were done by Notgonnadie. Because of an argument we had a few months ago, however, and the fact that she left the fandom, the last 1/4th of this story will be written by myself alone and "potentially" another person should I decide on somebody who can match the writing style for this story. So we hope you all enjoy what has been written already and what will continue to be written towards the end.

Dib: ZADRfan1 AKA Pat-The-Kitsune

Preview Image Done by Zoroana

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Shaking his head at Rose’s observations, Zim couldn’t help but feel as though Dib’s changed behavior had started far longer ago, long before they’d even met Jack and Rose or found out he was expecting. “...I don't know…He's pregnant…I thought that was it...” he sent Rose an almost exhausted look, wanting so badly to believe that that was all there was to it but knowing full well that was anything but the case.

Rose sighed at the look Zim was sending her, having been trying to convince herself for quite a long time now that Dib’s pregnancy was the only contributing factor to his sudden emotional outbursts. “I-I thought so too...B-But now I'm not so sure...M-Maybe that's all it is, but...” she sighed again, unable to shake the niggling feeling she felt deep within her gut.

Pulling his knees to his chest, Zim sighed as well.

“Do you want me to go and talk to him?” Rose rested a hand on his shoulder, rubbing up and down his arm.

Zim nodded his head sadly. “Please?” he said, not so certain the other would willingly speak to him in that moment.

“Alright.” Rose turned to head out of the kitchen and towards the stairs, assuming Dib had gone back upstairs to the guest bedroom. Stopping in her tracks right outside the kitchen when she found Dib sitting against the outer wall however, she knelt down next to him, the hybrid currently staring down at his knees, which he had pulled in close to his chest.

“...He hates me, doesn't he?” Dib hid his face back in his arms, having overheard everything they had been saying about him.

Realizing this, Rose sighed before smiling sadly at him. “No, Dib. He loves you.” she said before reaching out a hand to place on his shoulder reassuringly.

Dib could only shake his head slowly at that though. “No...He loved the old me...But the way I am now. S-Something's wrong with me...Something's changed. He doesn't like the way I am now! Tak was right. I am weak. Without a purpose in life, I'm as weak as they come, and Zim doesn't like that about me.” his voice shook despite his best efforts not to break down again.

“But Dib, you HAVE a purpose.” Rose moved her hand from his shoulder to place on his belly. “This is your purpose now. You're a mother, Dib. That is perhaps the greatest responsibility in the entire universe. It's more difficult than saving the world, and only a few people can do it.” she said, rubbing a thumb comfortingly over the kicking in the hybrid’s stomach.

“But what about Zim?...He gave up so much more for me because of this...He gave up his mission, he gave up HIS PEOPLE, HIS HOME! Hell, he even nearly gave up his life! He gave it all up to be with me. But I'm not the one he wants anymore. The smeets aren't the purpose I was looking for in life. They can't make me the way he remembers me! He wants me to be the way I was when we first met! That's the side of me he fell in love with! Not the side I'm showing now!”

“Oh, Dib...”

“Dib…” Zim cut in suddenly, having heard the yelling from the other room. Stepping out of the kitchen, he then crouched down next to him, looking sad. “I'll love you no matter what, Dib...” he said, shifting his gaze off to one side as he felt guilty now for making Dib feel that way with his words.

“I'm not the way you want me to be though! You gave up so much yet I can't bring myself to be what you gave all that stuff up for! I'm such a screw up! It's not fair to you! It's not fair that I can't be the way you want me to be!”

“But you're you! That's all that matters.” Zim looked back at him frantic now, worried Dib would try to leave him again. Leaning forward, he then tried to pull him in close. “Please…Just don't leave me...” he said in a pleading voice, hating the fact that the other was always running away from him anytime they had a disagreement of any type.

Dib balled up a bit when Zim pulled him in close. “...The me you fell in love with left a long time ago...A-And he isn't coming back...I don't see how you could want me the way I am now...The me I am now is constantly hurting you...” he broke down into his arms.

Antennas wilting at those words, Zim closed his eyes sadly and pulled Dib even closer. “Dib... Come here...” he held him tight, letting him bury his face in his chest. “I'll always love you, Dib...” he said before reaching up to pet back a bit of Dib’s hair comfortingly.

Finding Zim's chest to nuzzle his face into, Dib sobbed gently to himself in it.

“Shhh…It's okay...” Zim held him close, rubbing his back gently and ruffling his hair.

“Wh-What's wrong with me...?” Dib’s voice shook. “Why am I always hurting you?!” he then said in an all too frustrated tone.

Zim sighed. “I…I don't know... Dib... W-What would you say... to seeing a therapist?” he asked, no longer able to deny the fact that there was definitely something wrong with the other but hesitant to imply such a thing.

“A-A therapist?” Dib looked up at Zim teary-eyed, remembering all the times he had been forced to sit down with school counselors and such in the past, each one always saying the same thing about him. It wouldn't matter whether he went to see a therapist or not. It would just end the same way it always did, he was sure.

Zim sighed at the look Dib was sending him before nodding his head and going to nuzzle him. “I could go with you...” he offered, unsure whether the other would actually take him up on such an offer but wanting to try anyways.

Dib’s antennae could only wilt even more at that suggestion. “...It won't help...” he reached up his hands to yank down on his antennas, shaking his head and pulling his knees to himself. “It won't help! It never does!” he didn't want to be sent back there, the fact that Zim was the one trying to send him there hurting him more than anything else.

Zim held onto Dib tighter at that response. “Dib…There is something wrong... I don't know what... but there is…You can't deny that...I…I just want to help you...” he said desperately, just wanting to try anything that might help the other at this point.

“Why are you doing this to me?!” Dib shook his head even more, not wanting to listen or even believe a word Zim was saying to him. He didn't want "professional" help. All he wanted was to be left alone as he began rocking a bit in his spot.

“Please, Dib... Just try it? I'll stay with you the whole time...”

“Noo...Noo...Noo...Noo...Nooooo...Not again...Nooo...” Dib began repeating over and over again, shaking his head some more as he curled in on himself, hiding away from the other now. “Just leave me alone! It's not going to do me any good!” he then screamed at the Irken, hating the fact that Zim of all people was even suggesting such an alternative.

“Dib...” Zim’s eyes widened at that reaction. “P-Please...Do it for me?” he begged despite the fact that he was fighting a losing battle here now.

Letting out a wet whimper, Dib peeked a single eye open, able to see from the look on Zim's face that the other was serious about wanting to put him through this again. “And what do you think any of this will accomplish?! What more do you think I'll gain other than another person added to the list of people who think I'm insane?!” he exclaimed hysterically, his frustration with the other only growing more out of control by the second.

Zim’s antennas drooped at those words. “I don't think you're insane…and neither does Gaz…Jack and Rose don't think so either…So if you ask me, the amount of people who think you're SANE is actually growing.” he said in a weak attempt to defend his case.

“Then what would even be the point in me going to see a therapist?!” Dib said through grit teeth, a hint of anger seeping into his words now despite his best efforts not to explode on the other and say anything he might regret in the long run. “I already know a therapist would think I'm insane! My dad does, Tak does, the entire school does! If you don't think I'm insane, then why do you even want me to go in the first place?!” he exploded in a fit of rage, throwing his hands down from his face to glare at the Irken furiously.
ZADR Orange Chapter 180
A/N: Hey, you guys. Sorry it's taken me so long to update this story. Life has been throwing some rather major curve balls at me as of late and been making it difficult for me to find time for signing online. Regardless, I'm trying to work this story into my schedule more and get some writing done in my spare time before and after work. It's slow-coming but helps me at least stay a little bit more productive throughout my days. Hopefully I'll be able to update more over the holiday season, and granted I can sort a few things out over the following month or so, I'm going to try and create myself an update schedule come the beginning of the new year. We'll see though. Right now I'm just kind of playing things by ear and working on this story when I feel like it.

I've been in a bit of a writing slump for quite some time now but am doing anything I can to lift myself out of it. You guys have no idea how badly I want to finish this story. There's still a lot of work that needs to be done for it though. I plan on revising a few future scenes as I get around to ficafying them and don't even get me started on writing an actual ending to this monster of a story. I will finish it though. No doubt about it. So long as I have a passion for the story and people willing to read it, I'll never give up on this role play, even if it takes me another 6 or more years to complete. Here's hoping it doesn't take me that long though. XD

In any case, hope you guys enjoy this quick update! More to come in the hopefully near future!

~ZADR Orange Chapter 180~

Disclaimer- We do not own the cartoon that this fanfiction is written for, nor any of the characters from it. We do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Rating: M

Warnings: EXTREME OOCness! (If you can not handle the OOCness in this story, then please click the back button now and don't even bother commenting about it. Any flamers we get WILL be blocked accordingly.)

All of Zim's parts for about the first 3/4ths of this story were done by Notgonnadie. Because of an argument we had a few months ago, however, and the fact that she left the fandom, the last 1/4th of this story will be written by myself alone and "potentially" another person should I decide on somebody who can match the writing style for this story. So we hope you all enjoy what has been written already and what will continue to be written towards the end.

Dib: ZADRfan1 AKA Pat-The-Kitsune

Preview Image Done by Zoroana

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Chapter 180
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Just out of curiosity, why is the story called orange? I am at chaper 131 now, and even though I still have a little to go before I catch up, I havnt been able to tell why.

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*cries softly* I remember how depressed I was long ago when this discontinued...I can't thank you ENOUGH for bringing it back. Thank you to the stars and back. You are amazing.
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I got rid of the weird overlay to that ZO fanart of mine that i believe is a preview image for a few chapters ((That one night- ZO by zoroana)) <-- this one xD just letting you know in case you want to change/update or whatever the preview thingy, that's completely up to you XD
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You have written something that nothing has ever done to me, sit and read all day. I mean, I never really would just sit in my bed and read, or even play video games! You are just such an amazing writer! :iconblushplz:
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