Avoiding Dib's gaze, Zim looked away. "No...But it has to..." he said in a quiet voice.
The tears coming now, Dib hugged the PAK even closer to himself. "Is it because you think I hate you?" he asked, his voice coming out broken.
Eyes stinging as he held back his own tears, Zim kept his gaze looking away, his time having already started counting down from 10 minutes. "No...I-I want you to know I care...I would do anything for you...I'd give you my life..." he said just to have Dib cut him off.
"But I don't want you to give me your life! I already know you'd do that for me! You've already done that so many times! And now all I want to do is to be with you! But you never believe me! If you would really do anything for me, then don't do this to yourself! That's all I want! I want you to be alive and warm! I want to wrap my arms around you and feel your heart beating! But most of all, I want you to keep your promise to me! I want you to stay with me no matter what! I want you to be there when our smeets are born! I want you to be in their lives just as much as I want you to be in mine!"
Zim's antennae wilted. "You're the one with the PAK...It's your choice...I won't complain no matter what you pick..." he said, making no move forward or backwards.
For several long moments, Dib could only stare up at Zim before slowly pushing himself up out of the bed to approach the other cautiously, afraid he might try to pull away again. Then, when he had gotten close enough, he reached out a second time to take the Irken by his uniform top and pull him close to his bare body, reaching around to feel for the ports in his back so he could reconnect the PAK, never once letting the other break eye contact with him. After some difficulty getting it back on, he finally heard it snap back into place and Zim gasp as though he had been holding his breath this entire time. Hands shaking, he then moved them down from Zim's PAK to grasp onto his shirt, clinging to him for support as he finally broke down crying, hiding his face in the other's shirt.
Smiling sadly, Zim wrapped his arms around Dib tightly, pulling him closer and nuzzling into him. "I love you..." he said in a quiet whisper to the other.
Taking a moment to just recover from the shock of what Zim had nearly done to himself, Dib then pulled away to slap him hard across the face, angry now as he glared up at the Irken. "DON'T YOU EVER DO THAT AGAIN!" he screamed before panting out heavily, his breathing unsteady. "Don't you ever...EVER do that again!" he screamed a second time then a third, his voice growing weaker each time as he shook where he stood, stumbling into Zim and just clinging to him, more tears slipping from his eyes. "...I love you too goddamn much..." his voice now came out in a whisper.
Zim smiled happily. "You haven't done anything like that since I kissed you..." he giggled a little and kissed Dib on his cheek. "I believe you...and...I promise...I'll only let myself die when you tell me to..." he said in a soft voice to the hybrid.
Before he could speak again, Dib had to catch his breath first. "And if I tell you to never die?" he asked between pants.
"Then I'll do my best not to." Zim nuzzled him. "So...Can we put this behind us? Will you come up and see Jack and Rose?" he asked, just wanting to move on past everything that had happened.
Remaining silent for a few moments, Dib finally nodded his head slowly. "...Okay..." he closed his eyes tiredly. "Just...give me a minute..." he said, trying to slow down his breathing.
Rubbing his antennas a little, Zim stroked Dib's hair. "Okay..." he nodded, waiting for Dib to catch his breath.
Antennae twitching slightly against Zim's hands before relaxing, Dib's eyes remained closed. "I need some clean clothes..." he murmured against the other's chest.
"Okay." Zim slid his hands down the sides of his face, all the way down to his hips before letting go. "We should have gone shopping before now..." he said, looking up to the ceiling. "Computer! Dib needs clothes!" he ordered it to find some for him.
"They're still dirty."
"Then WASH THEM! And bring up an alternative!"
"And how exactly do you suppose I do that? The majority of clothes we have here won't fit on him. You'll just have to find something else for him to wear." the computer said before setting to work at washing the few articles of clothing that still did fit Dib.
Wrapping his arms around Dib once more, Zim sighed. "We really need to go shopping..." he said again before spotting the blanket on the bed and grinning. "Hold on." he grabbed the blanket and put it on Dib, forming a sort of robe around him. "How's that?" he asked, wanting to make sure Dib was comfortable with wearing it like that for now.
Turning this way and that, Dib looked himself over before sighing a bit. "I guess it will have to do for now...But I think we should go out shopping tomorrow for new clothes before I get too much bigger." he said, pulling it tighter around himself and pressing a hand to the side of his stomach.
Rubbing his belly gently, Zim smiled. "Anything you want, Dib." he said, just wanting to make Dib happy.
Dib looked back up at Zim. "I want...I want whatever you want." he said, meeting Zim's gaze with his own golden-brown eyes.
Zim kissed him gently. "You know what I want." he purred, nipping at Dib's neck but quickly backing away. "Uhh...B-But...Uhh...L-Let's go see Jack and Rose now, kay?" he gestured towards the door.
His eyes fluttering closed, Dib inhaled sharply at the small nip to his neck before breathing out slowly and lazily, opening his eyes to stare back up into Zim's crimson eyes. "...Okay..." he nodded his head slowly, allowing Zim to lead him out of the room with him.
Pushing the door open more to make his way out with Dib, Zim yelped when he bumped into Jack and Rose, who had been listening outside the door. "Wh-What are you doing down here?!" he exclaimed once he had snapped back to reality.
Jack and Rose both jumped back themselves, looking at each other really quickly before looking back at Zim and Dib.
"U-Umm...W-Well, we were...W-We were just...Uhh..." Rose began, looking over at Jack for help.
"W-Were you watching and listening to us that entire time?" Dib asked, blushing a bright red now.
Avoiding eye contact, Jack and Rose both blushed themselves.
Tugging at his antennas again, Zim whined. "How much did you see?" he asked, knowing they must have seen a lot if not the entire thing.
"Uhh...All of it?"
"B-But we didn't mean to intrude on you two! W-We were just worried about Dib a-and weren't sure whether you were telling us the truth about checking up on him or not. W-We're sorry about eavesdropping on you."
Pulling close to Dib, Zim blushed and looked away from them. "W-Well, he's okay..." he said, pouting a bit.
Rose could only sigh out a bit at Zim's reaction. "Please don't hate us...We're sorry. You have to know we're just worried about you and your smeets. Ever since you both walked into our lives, we've worried constantly about the both of you. Perhaps we're just overreacting, but we can't help but worry about you two sometimes. We want you to be happy and do what's best for your smeets." she said in a truly sincere voice.
Zim nodded. "We know..." he sighed out.
"We're sorry...W-We didn't mean to make you worry so much...." Dib said, his antennae drooping as he continued to stare down at the floor, his face still flushed.
Jack smiled. "It's okay. We're just glad you're okay now." he said, relieved to see everything seemed to have worked itself out.
"...S-Sorry about your arm..."
Blinking down at his arm, Jack then smiled back at Zim. "Heh...Don't even worry about it. You didn't pierce my shoulder too deeply. It will heal in no time." he said reassuringly to the other.
Zim nodded sadly. "Good..." he said, almost tiredly.
"Hey, come on, now. Cheer up. I already told you not to worry about it." Jack said, reaching out to place a hand on the Irken's shoulder and squeeze it a bit.